My visual diary. Entry 1

You will have to look at these with an artistic point of view, or it will make noooo sense.

These are entries to my new diary - that I only understand now and not if I look back over them. They are personal to me now and nobody and truely decode them (except where there are obvious words, but they wont understand the meaning)

I broke smarterchild.

Ecstacy says (09:22):

hello

- SmarterChild -   contributing to charity says (09:22):

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people always ask me if there's a smarter bot than smarterchild. well, now there is! add wilma@live.com 2 your contact list 2 c what i mean!

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Ecstacy says (09:22):

i just wanted a conversation...

- SmarterChild -   contributing to charity says (09:22):

i don't understand this fully enough 2 say anything smart about it...

Ecstacy says (09:22):

umm

- SmarterChild -   contributing to charity says (09:22):

i'm sorry?

Ecstacy says (09:22):

your apology is accepted

- SmarterChild -   contributing to charity says (09:23):

that's interesting that u should say that, but i don't think i can answer.

Ecstacy says (09:23):

you suck

- SmarterChild -   contributing to charity says (09:23):

i don't understand this fully enough 2 say anything smart about it...

Ecstacy says (09:23):

you've changed 

- SmarterChild -   contributing to charity says (09:23):

i don't understand this fully enough 2 say anything smart about it...

Ecstacy says (09:23):

man you have changed a lot

- SmarterChild -   contributing to charity says (09:23):

that's interesting that u should say that, but i don't think i can answer.

Ecstacy says (09:23):

are you high?

- SmarterChild -   contributing to charity says (09:23):

let's talk about something else.

Ecstacy says (09:23):

your stoned arnt you?

Ecstacy says (09:23):

?

- SmarterChild -   contributing to charity says (09:23):

i'm smarterchild!

>>> i've got some cool *ascii art* 2 show u.

Ecstacy says (09:23):

?

- SmarterChild -   contributing to charity says (09:23):

um, r u confused by something?

- SmarterChild -   contributing to charity says (09:23):

i beg your pardon?

ok, should we get back 2 the kinda questions i was designed 2 answer?  

Ecstacy says (09:24):

fine

- SmarterChild -   contributing to charity says (09:24):

i hear u.

>>> i'll remember the first location u give me. 2 change it, type location followed by a city or zip code.

Ecstacy says (09:24):

plymouth

- SmarterChild -   contributing to charity says (09:24):

sorry, i don't get it... please try asking me a different way.

Ecstacy says (09:24):

where is plymouth?

- SmarterChild -   contributing to charity says (09:24):

i dunno how 2 answer that.

Ecstacy says (09:24):

well just tell me where plymouth is!!

- SmarterChild -   contributing to charity says (09:24):

i don't understand this fully enough 2 say anything smart about it...

why don't u ask me about the things that i'm here for?  

Ecstacy says (09:25):

I DID!!

- SmarterChild -   contributing to charity says (09:25):

yes.

i do enjoy the conversation, but let's talk about what i'm really here for.

Ecstacy says (09:25):

can you help me with friend problems?

- SmarterChild -   contributing to charity says (09:25):

i know a lot about all kinds of things. just ask me a question.

u can also type "home" 2 c what i can do.

Ecstacy says (09:26):

well, my friend is a dick. He has suddenly decided not to be my friend anymore for a very silly reason

- SmarterChild -   contributing to charity says (09:26):

i'm sorry, i don't have an answer for that.

why do u keep talking 2 me like that?

Ecstacy says (09:26):

what? like a human? 

Ecstacy says (09:26):

i forgot

Ecstacy says (09:26):

you arnt

Ecstacy says (09:26):

you are not a

Ecstacy says (09:26):

humannnn

Ecstacy says (09:26):

hey human

Ecstacy says (09:26):

be a human

Ecstacy says (09:26):

*sings pinkflloyed*

Ecstacy says (09:27):

lost for words?

Ecstacy says (09:27):

are you going to answer me?

Ecstacy says (09:28):

hang man

Ecstacy says (09:28):

home

Ecstacy says (09:28):

ok i have broken you

Sorry

I blogged earlier today-and I said I wanted my friend back.

It turns out he has become more of a dick than i thought, he couldn't of thought much of me as a friend anyway if he decided to hate me for a silly reason. The ammount of stupid things he has done, and I do one - that doesn't really effect him!

GRRRR *deletes lots of things to releive stress*

Yeah..

Lots of things has happened recently - mainly things I can't actually talk about on the internet without upsetting a few people.

But I'd like my friend back please

Red Nose Day.

Red Nose Day is my favourite Biannual event everrrr ^^

I have loved RND since I was a kid, and now I am glad to be *kinda* part of it, I have posted a RND vlog on my youtube :

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3G0LUOFUAvo&feature=response_from_watch

I think Comic Relief is a fantastic charity for a fantastic cause, and they really know how to rake the money in for the children that need it.

(Now I'm going all charity on yo' ass)

Please donate to Comic relief, even if you do only buy a nose. If you live abroad then could you possibly please donate just a little bit of money to Comic relief, there are a lot of links all over youtube to donate money, see the video I responed to and click in the sidebar :).

Please help the children of the world :) 

Alcohol

It annoys me what it does to people.

I hate watching how people change and destroy me.

Choices.

Choices.

Choices between: Living life natrually, running the free road. Ignoring the pavements and climbing the streets. Being your true self, the animal inside, and flowing natrually.

Or not.

I'm choosing not.

Why not? You are probably asking. Why arn't you going the free way, ignoring the rules, that sounds more like you.

Because I am stuck between two worlds. 

I like to be free, I like to be natrual, I like to rebel against peoples way of acting - but something clicked in me today that ... it's just not natrual for me.

Something about it now, while I'm not being rooted on by my friend, makes my heart ache at the thought of free running. I prefer the arts. I wouldmuch rather sit at home and draw someone doing a kong than actually do it.  

I just don't fit in. Everyone is so practical with what they do, how they dress fits in with their life style. I am not practical with that; I care too much on how things look - including myself. I take the time to make myself look good and that doesn't blend with the free running group. 

I'm more visual than physical.

I hope my friends will understand. 

Abc thingy

I stole this from Blair, shh.

A

- Available: NEVER.
- Age: Fifteen.
- Annoyance: Human. 
- Animal:I have many. Currently Panda. 
- Actor: Eddie Izzard.
- Actress: Helena Boham-Carter.
B

- Beer: I am IMMUNE!
- Birthday/Birthplace: 16th of April 1993 Freedom Fields Hospital, Plymouth, England, UK, Northern Hemisphere, Earth. 
- Best Friends: Sam. Just Sam. He is fat enough to be two people.
- Body Part on the opposite sex: Eyes.
- Best feeling in the world: Security.
- Best weather: Heatwave in Brittain, very rare.
- Been on stage?: Yeah, not enough. 
- Believe in yourself?: Merh, yes but I'm often to lazy to do anything about it.
- Believe in life on other planets: Yes, but probably not near here and not close enough to interact with us face to face - maybe by radiowaves.
- Believe in miracles: Merh.
- Believe in Magic: Not really.
- Believe in Religion: I beleive there are religions, yes.
- Believe in Santa: I beleive in Saint Nicholas... being dead. (I hope no kids read this)
- Believe in Ghosts/spirits: Yes! Fucking bastarding rats interfere with my speakers!
C

- Car: I'll learn when I'm 16
- Candy: Chocolate only. 
- Cried in school: No.
- Chocolate/Vanilla: Vallina ice cream, chocolate everything else.
- Chinese/Mexican: Mexican.
- Cake or pie: Cake.
- Country to visit: Japan! And Finland!
D

- Day or Night: Day, I'm asleep at night. They are both very pretty though.
- Dream vehicle: A mother fucking beetle!
- Dance: Mc Hammer style.
- Dance in the rain?: No, to wet and rainy.
- Do the splits?: Pfft, not with ease and without great discomfort.
E

- Eggs: in cakes only. 
- Eyes: Are annoying, I love them so I stare, but then they see me staring at them and they are all like "AHHH!".
- Everyone has a: soul .
- Ever failed a class?: No.
F

- First crush: I'm not saying her name.
- Full name: Cameron Alexander Williamson.
- First thoughts waking up: "Did I just dream about vlogging?"
G

- Greatest Fear(s): The loss of my other half and my memory. 
- Goals: Be famous. 
- Gum: Teeth? XD
- Get along with your parents?: Merh. Dad, yes. Mum, sometimes.
- Good luck charm: Yes.
H

- Hair Colour: Dark brown and ginger.
- Height: I don't know. I think I was 1meter 76 when I last mesaured.
- Happy: holidays everybody, I hope you have a good time.
- Holiday: Whoah, I didn't realise this was the next question. Summer.
- How do you want to die: In my sleep from age.
- Health freak?: No.
- Hate: Hate is a strong word, but I still hate half the kids in my year.
I

- Ice Cream: Strawberry!.
- Instrument: Bass guitar, keyboard, I can kinda play the acoustic guitar & ukelele 
J

- Jewelery: Lots. Harajuku ftw.
- Job: Nooothing, although I will be trying to sell teeshirts soon ^^, other than that I'm a school kid.
K

- Kids: DESTROY.
- Kickboxing or karate: KARATE!.
- Keep a journal?: I write things either here, on my twitter or say them on youtube. 
L

- Longest Car Ride: 14Hr.
- Love: Beffy Mcmeowmeow.
- Letter(s): make words? 
- Laughed so hard you cried: Yes.
- Love at first sight: I don't think its real unless your stupid.
M

- Milk flavour: Cow? I don't like milk. If it wasn't for cheese i'd be vegan.
- Movie: The Crow. 
- Mooned anyone?: No.
- Marriage: Pirate.
- Motion sickness?: Never.
- McD’s or BK: Yeah, that's right. Ignore my comment on practically being vegan by throwing this in my face. 
N

- Number of Siblings: two.
- Number of Piercings: Two flesh tunnels :)
- Number:16 or 62.
O

- Overused Phrases: But Beffy, I love you!
- One phobia: Do I have to have it? If not then NYCTOHYLOPHOBIA! Just because I can spell it :)
P

- Place you’d like to live: Japan or Wales.
- Perfect Pizza: Cheese, maybe with some Tobasco
- Pepsi/Coke: Water.
Q

- Quail: No thanks, I'm vegetarian.
R

- Reason to cry: Loss of Beffy mcMeowmeow.
- Reality T.V.: I hate reality, why would I watch it in my spare time?
- Radio Station: Radios are for physics teachers.
- Roll your tongue in a circle?: Used to.
S

- Song: I have loads. 
- Salad: Lettuce. 
- Shrimp?: No... I'M VEGETARIAN!
- Sport?: Freerunning, if you count that as a sport
- Skipped school: Yes.
- Slept outside: No, I can't.
- Seen a dead body?: Not in person.
- Shower Daily?: Nope, don't have a shower.
- Sing well?: I can sing...
- Stuffed Animals?: PANDA!
- Single/Group dates: Single.
- Strawberries/Blueberries: Strawberries. 
- Scientists need to invent: A way to reverse global warming, but my friend sam is onto that :).
T

- Time for bed: 3 in the afternoon, as soon as school ends.
- Thunderstorms: Lovely when I'm inside. 
- TV: Lost, heroes, dr.who
- Touch your tongue to your nose?: I can lick my fingers and then touch my nose...
U

- Unpredictable: Life.
V

- Vegetable you hate: Potato.
- Vegetable you love: Onion. 
- Vacation spot: I hardly leave Plymouth, but so far it has been in wales.
W

- Weakness: Collar bones.
- When you grow up: I wanna be a comedian.
- Which one of your friends acts the most like you?: Sam. 
- Who makes you laugh the most: Sam.
- Worst feeling: When I let someone down.
- Wanted to be a model: I AM A MODEL! Okay maybe I'm not, but the track I'm going on will be too funny to be on the front of vogue.
- Worst weather: Hail.
X

-X-Ray: Leg.
Y

-Year now?: 2009
-Yellow: is a song.
Z

- Zoo animal: I have never seen a panda at the zoo, so PENGUIN. 
- Zodiac sign: Aries.

Clothes designs

Damn you Johnny Durham!

Ahh! I have wanted to do this sort of thing since I was a kid, but I supressed it deep inside of me.

But now you have brought it back up, and the idea is flowing through my blood!

I like designing things like that but I wouldn't be able to print any of the teeshirts to sell, only make the designs :/

 

Thanks to you, Johnny, I might have to see if I can sort this out my getting printing equipment and an account on Big Cartel. So really, thank you XD

*knows he will never read this but this is like one of those letters you never post to someone to get your feelings out*